life
have you ever had one of those days where you think you're lost.....but you know you'll figure out where you're going eventually? i know it sounds kinda stupid, but i'm serious. you feel like know matter what you do you're gonna make the wrong decision. so you wait around for someone to decide for you. its almost an overwhelming mistrust of everything, including myself. which is really scary. i just think that i shouldn't be the person put in charge of my happiness, cause so far, i'm not that good at it. there's this quote from Garden State, that i really love. mainly because it clarifies things for me. when i think about how much life stresses me out i have to remember "I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got." i may not have a solid grasp on any religion or belief system, but i know that i'm not getting a new life anytime soon. so the bottom line, is i gotta make do with what i got. which pretty much means, if i want to have a "better" life, i have to go out and make it better. even if that means i have to give things up or do something i've never done. my mom tells me that things come to those who wait, but maybe this is one of those times, i need to go out and make something happen.
posted by Andie @ Saturday, October 02, 2004
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