Wednesday, March 22, 2006

stop. and finish.

me time has been pretty good lately. time alone is needed. needed to figure some things out in my life. important things that effect my future. i listen to my music and read my books, looking for that deeper meaning without actually looking. i have been so stuck in black and white fantasy for so long that i forgot things can be different. alone i revel and reckon and realize what a big mess i was getting myself into. the real story is long ago, a boy messed me up. and i never moved on. at least i thought i had, but really i was just lying to myself. all the mistakes i made just magnified. loneliness was the worst part of it all. god it just messes with your head. and your heart. that most of all. for every step, i took two back. so many questions have been overlooked by emotion. questions hiding in dark corners, waiting for me, when finally i had no where else to run. some days i do just fine. and some days i just need a hug. someone to be with. and for the first time since i can't even remember, its not you. now i know i can be with someone new. without thinking about that disaster. no more you and me. just me. me.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

cause i know how much everyone loves these. :D

1. Honestly, are you happy right now? at this very moment not so much
2. Honestly, what color is your underwear? white....yeah boring....whatevs
3. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? i want to saw my arm off/physics is scary
4. Honestly, what are you doing right now? hoping that ohms will help with more than just physics
7. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? only when i'm not unattractive
8. Honestly, have you done something bad today? yep. one word. toast.
9. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? heck yes. although not nearly enough.
10. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? hmm not so much
11. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? music
12. Honestly, do you bite your nails? when i'm nervous. which isn't too often.
13. Honestly, what is your mood right now? exhausted
14. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? nope
15. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? mom/charlie
16. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? yep
17. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? hate is a strong word. but almost entirely yes, there is a someone i greatly dislike.
18. Honestly, who/what do you want to punch right now? the two things begin respectively with an a and a b. (hint: one is my arm)
19. Honestly, are you loyal? mos def
20. Honestly are you in denial? yeah, that i don't need a boyfriend.
21. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? probs, but i'm pretty tired.
22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? uhhh yeah
23. Honestly, do you like someone? yes and no. not sure if its infatuation.
24. Honestly, does anyone like you? i hope so!
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? nope cause i reject everyone.
26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?DUH!
WHIP OUT YOUR CELL:
last missed call- mom
last received call- mom
last call made- brother
last text received- K
CURRENT:
what channel is the tv on- it was on E!
what’s on the computer desk- a bunch of crap, a nalgene, my cellie, and my puter
what is your background- costa rica pic
FAVORITE:
type of pizza- BBQ chicken
letter of the Alphabet- dunno
THIS OR THAT:
sunrise or sunset- sunset
spring or fall - fall
skiing or snowboarding- i'm better at skiing
Baseball or basketball- b-ball
real world or laguna beach- real world
forks or spoons- spork
fruits or veggies- fruit!!!
beach or mountains- las montanas
OTHER RANDOM:
what’s the time-2:26 am
what’s the date- 3/7/06
what’s the day- tuesday
light or dark out- dark
do you own a washing machine- yepparooni
do you own more than 5 tv sets- no
do you own a toaster- muhahahahahaa guess
do you own a house with 2 floors- well i'm renting a townhouse with 2
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WHEN I SAY:
cat- clingy
jump- bones
bed- splendiferous
food- full
RANDOM AGAIN:
what are you wearing? undies and a tank
what’s your favorite color(s)?- blue and green
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?- nopers
69 things you may have never known about me.
1. Initials: AEO
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: Pablo Picasso
3. Where was your first kiss? washington park
4. For or against same sex marriage? totally for
5. Are you Happy? depends on the day, but mainly yes
6. Are you bisexual? no......i do however check out chicks a lot
7. Do you believe in God? i believe i'm going to hell so yes.
8. How many U.S states have you been to? 15 i think
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? solamente un
10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? nah
11. Name something you like physically about yourself: i have super long legs
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: i heart pretty much everyone.
13. What's your mom's first name? Debbie
14. What is your dream car? there are far too many but i would like a camaro or chevelle SS
15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?africa
16. Have you ever had someone of the opposite sex sleep over? uhhhh yeah.....i love to cuddle
17. Ever been truly in love? nope
18. Do you download music? uhhhh......no?!?!?!? ;)
19. How many illegal things have you done? not many
20. Where would you want to go on a first date? to get food
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yep
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks? nope
24. Do you like President Bush? def no
25. Have you ever bungee jumped? nope
26. Have you ever white water rafted? oh for shizzle.....i was asked to be an instructor
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? oh yeah, all the time
29. Have you met a real redneck? oh yeah
30. Are you racist? nope
31. What band/artist are you listening to right now? gorillaz
32. What is your current favorite song? oh shit......uhhhh probs walking by: something corporate
33. What was the last movie you watched? the bourne supremacy
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? starbucks
36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? nope
37. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? never to harm
39. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? its kind of a face thing.....you gotta have something special about the way you look at me.....i'm not picky about specifics.....its just gotta be there
40. What really turns you on? comfort....i like when boys tease me
41. What do you usually order from Starbucks? iced venti 2% no ice chai
44. Say something totally random about yourself: i haven't had a "boyfriend" for almost 4 years
45. Do you have an iPod? couldn't live without it
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? uma thurman
47. Whats your dad's name? Ken
48. Do you have braces? i did
49. Are you comfortable with your height? mostly yes, occasionally no.
50. Do you like someone right now? i thought i already answered this one.
51. How tall are you? 5' 10 1/2"
52. Do you speak any other language other than english? spanish! i got by pretty well in costa rica
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo? yep
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? yep kody
57. Do you watch MTV? not for a while
58. What's something that really annoys you? people who think they're better than everyone else....egos
59. What are some things you really like? sleep, music, people i love, rain, a good book
60. Do you like Michael Jackson? i like his music
61. Can you dance? not so good
62. Have you ever surfed? yep in florida hawaii and costa rica
63. Do you know how to pump gas? yep
64. Do you drive? yeah
65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out? all night?
66. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? not sure
67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? no
68. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? many a time
69. What is your favorite city to live in? boulder as of now. but i really love denver its just not close enough to the mountains

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

la musica!

i've decided to make pandora.com a permanant fixture on my bloggity blog. everyone loved it just as much as i did. woo hoo! here it is again, so ya'll will stop asking me for the site. :D just kidding. those of you who didn't get to see it before, go now. it'll change your life. i heart music.

http://pandora.com