food for thought
"If you would like to know what men really are, the time to learn comes when they stand in danger or in doubt. For then at last words of truth are drawn from the depths of the heart, and the mask is torn off, reality remains."
so i screwed up again
So i think i broke my computer. Several people have called and asked if i have blocked them from my buddy list. Not the case. So i tripped over my computer cord and dropped my computer. Yeah.....not cool. I have to send it into Gateway. I really have no idea how long i am gonna be without a computer but let's pray for the best. Okay so onto a totally different subject. Today i realized that sometimes i misunderstand relationships. I'm not good with trust anyway, but i wish people would just be honest with me. I know friends are supposed to be kind and loving, especially when you ask them if a someone likes you. This doesn't just pertain to guys. But when someone asks you if a person likes them, if you have no idea.....say just that. If the reason you want to see me is because you need to find a party or need a place to crash or if you need anything.....tell me beforehand. In general, i'm a pretty laid back person. I'm not offended easily. I hope ya'll had a better night than me. It's just been one of those weeks. If you need me, call me...i'm not sure i'll be able to survive 2-3 weeks without internet.
you crazy people.....its not that i don't love you
Lately people have been asking me: "Andie, why do you put your IM on invisible?" Well, there are several reasons. Let me list them for you:
- I'm waiting for someone to come on. (usually its a prearranged meeting time.....i don't wait to return from invisible as soon as you sign on.....weirdos)
- There are entirely too many people talking to me at once.....so i hide.
- I want to talk to just one person.
- Avoiding certain people. For instance, psychotic ex boyfriends who use other peoples screen names to IM me.
- Sometimes i just need to be alone.
Don't take it personal if i don't talk to you. Just pick one of the reason's above. Okay? Okay, sounds good. If you have a question you would like answered. Just leave a comment. Or IM me. And i'll be sure to respond superfast. Hope that cleared things up for those who were upset. Bye for now.
Here's to a new week....
Ya wanna know what kind of sucks. I think entirely too much. When i say too much, i mean i have written 8 different entries for this post and have deleted all of them. Yeah, i know i'm crazy.....its all good. I'm trying to find a way to keep me from analyzing everything to death. I need some sort of distraction. Too bad i can't run.....that usually helps. Right now though, i realized that i had kind of a shitty week. I hate telling anyone my problems....cuz hello....MY problems.....why should you hear about them? But at the end of the week i see that all my positivity has gone out the window. Crutches suck. Like hardcore suck. I guess i can say that this will be another learning experience. Now i greatly appreciate the able to walk. Plus its kinda lonely. I have to sit on my ass all the time. People are nice and all because they want to do things for me. But the problem is....they all have to leave me to get things for me. Which leaves me, well, with me. I hate that. That may be one of my biggest fears.... being alone. Ya know its not like i'm expecting to be married in 5 years, or ever for that matter. Yet, the idea of people leaving me scares the shit out of me. Its inevitable that people come and go, i just don't want to accept it. I like things the way they are. Maybe the reason i'm scared of falling in love is because i would be leaving my normal way of life. I spend almost every waking hour with people who mean so much to me. If i were to add another person into the mix, things would change. I'm not saying that i would only be with the one i'm in love with. Just the opposite in fact. No one here has ever seen me with a boyfriend. I don't need attention and affection every minute of the day. I like to have a boyfriend that doesn't smother me and require updates of who i'm with and where i'm gonna be. I have been cheated on before. I will NEVER cheat on a boyfriend. I know that trust is always an issue. I have a serious problem trusting ANYONE, no matter who they are. But if a guy is really worried about me going out to a party and having sex with a random guy, then we shouldn't be together in the first place. He obviously wouldn't know me at all. So far, those are the only kind of guys i have found. I'm pretty sure i have given up on finding a guy. Most guys either want to get into my pants, or they want to marry me. I'm not looking for either one. So if you're one of those guys, friends it is. I may sound crazy. But i'm just being honest. I'm not gonna tell you all the bad things that have happened. And i KNOW that i will never remember all the good times this week.....ruling at beer pong, playing WTF, a bomb-diggity room, and the coolest friends a girl could ask for. Night for now. I'll catch you tomorrow. Without a doubt, it will be an even better day.
Yay for new things!!!
So i was getting a lot of complaints about my xanga site because no one could get to it. Therefore.....here is my new site. I hope ya'll like it. I figured this way i am forced to write more often seeing that people can actually get to the page. This is gonna be really quick but i'll write another post before i go to bed!!!!! byeeee for now.
