clean.
"This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go."
-T. Roethke, 'The Waking'
at some point you just have to accept your hurt and vulnerability and walk away from what hurts you that you cannot fix. and even if its your own hand that holds you, you won't be without someone to hold onto. i'm allowed to feel down. and upset. and i'm allowed to show it. my dad was never big on listening. so i learned to be good at pretending things were ok. i think that's why i hold it in. because i don't want the people i love to abandon me. and so now i need to keep reminding myself that its okay to feel down. something can be learned from this. i need to stop hurting myself. i'm going to find someone who's willing to listen to me.
posted by Andie @ Tuesday, March 06, 2007
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