stop. and finish.
me time has been pretty good lately. time alone is needed. needed to figure some things out in my life. important things that effect my future. i listen to my music and read my books, looking for that deeper meaning without actually looking. i have been so stuck in black and white fantasy for so long that i forgot things can be different. alone i revel and reckon and realize what a big mess i was getting myself into. the real story is long ago, a boy messed me up. and i never moved on. at least i thought i had, but really i was just lying to myself. all the mistakes i made just magnified. loneliness was the worst part of it all. god it just messes with your head. and your heart. that most of all. for every step, i took two back. so many questions have been overlooked by emotion. questions hiding in dark corners, waiting for me, when finally i had no where else to run. some days i do just fine. and some days i just need a hug. someone to be with. and for the first time since i can't even remember, its not you. now i know i can be with someone new. without thinking about that disaster. no more you and me. just me. me.
posted by Andie @ Wednesday, March 22, 2006
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