losing the battle.
things got bad. and not in that woe is me kind of way. but actually bad. and i wish people would say the things they're supposed to say, and its all just bullshit when ALL you want is for a pair of arms to wrap around you and hold you tight. and here i am, having never felt quite as alone as i do now.life gets so intolerable. you want someone to make those life changing decisions for you. because it feels like every choice you make is the wrong one. its all too much on those days where you'd prefer to bury your head in the sand until you have something tangible to hate. and until then no words, nor smiles or stupid jokes will help. just a pair of arms.
and you despise them when they try. and you hate them when they don't. that's just your prerogative. i don't care who you are or what you have to say. just be here and put your arms around me, and let me feel what i feel. even if it hurts. even if it means nothing to you. let it mean something to me. because nothing means much of anything right now
posted by Andie @ Sunday, September 03, 2006
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