Monday, December 27, 2004

i think i'm lost

It's becoming harder for me to see what i had in mind a week ago. I am terrified of life and cannot let go of the fear unless i somehow, inadvertently, manage to employ myself, and here i am again: sitting, waiting, disjointed. I'm so tired of dealing with all this bullshit. Escape is the only solution. But its unattainable. It seems that everywhere i turn someone is creating a wall, especially where they shouldn't be put. I just need some room to breathe, is that too much to ask?